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  • Anonymous284.5 lbs?! You're huge! Whoa! Hope you post some picks in gym gear!
  • Thank I guess.

    It’s weird - I’ve kinda expressed it before. I am in a happy place right now with my body. I’m happier now then I was several years ago when I gained to roughly this size with no lifting. I’m happier then I was lean and just building muscle.

    Am I super close to being the biggest I’ve ever been - Yep.

    Am I huge - I don’t really think so. But I’m just getting started.

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  • AnonymousMay I ask how much you weigh? Do you want to be heavier?
  • 284.5LBS

    Bigger which would result in being Heavier

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I feel like if I open up the snapchat & kik can of worms all I’m gonna end up with are dick pics.

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Thinking I want to get back into taking more photos. Even if it’s just with my iPhone camera.

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In less then 12 hours the boyfriend in coming up for the next 3 days. It’s been far to long. I am jittery and excited and nervous all over again.

I can’t wait for him to walk out of the airport and hug him.

Just hug him and know he is here and mine. Gonna pack as many little touches in as I can this weekend.

Both the friendly kind and the naughty kind.

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Already In A Funk

And then I get a couple messages here and elsewhere who think their anon and/or generally unsolicited opinion of what I should do with my appearance is wanted.

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Serious Mass by ON

It’s a bit pricey but I’m debating adding it back in as my protein/gainer shake as it was something I used in college that really helped the size pack on.

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Think Big, Eat Big, Lift Big, Get Big

My New Mantra for Living
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Post Lunch Naps need to be A Thing again!

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If you have 20 minutes and wanna learn more about Strongmen

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I currently sit 3LBS shy of my old highest weight from six years ago.

It honestly came as a shock to me. I have been lifting and eating and extremely happy with where my body had been heading. But I wasn’t aware I had gotten so big. Despite the comments that my family made a few weeks ago when I visited.

I know a fair number of folks that would be stoked to get back to their all time high but I have mixed feeling. I have bad memories of when I was this big before and the negative personal aftermath. 

So I have to remind myself how I’m different, that I am stronger, that’s waist is tighter then it was 6 years ago. 38 size waist now and 42 size waist then.

This size, the weight I have for myself right now honestly make me feel big and confident and strong. For the first time in a while I actually feel comfortable in my skin. 

Being a purely focused as a gainer wasn’t for me
Being a purely focused on being lean wasn’t for me

I’m the happiest I’ve been with myself in a while

Wish me luck as I push the muscle forward towards the next milestone.

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