And then I get a couple messages here and elsewhere who think their anon and/or generally unsolicited opinion of what I should do with my appearance is wanted.
It’s a bit pricey but I’m debating adding it back in as my protein/gainer shake as it was something I used in college that really helped the size pack on.
I currently sit 3LBS shy of my old highest weight from six years ago.
It honestly came as a shock to me. I have been lifting and eating and extremely happy with where my body had been heading. But I wasn’t aware I had gotten so big. Despite the comments that my family made a few weeks ago when I visited.
I know a fair number of folks that would be stoked to get back to their all time high but I have mixed feeling. I have bad memories of when I was this big before and the negative personal aftermath.
So I have to remind myself how I’m different, that I am stronger, that’s waist is tighter then it was 6 years ago. 38 size waist now and 42 size waist then.
This size, the weight I have for myself right now honestly make me feel big and confident and strong. For the first time in a while I actually feel comfortable in my skin.
Being a purely focused as a gainer wasn’t for me
Being a purely focused on being lean wasn’t for me
I’m the happiest I’ve been with myself in a while
Wish me luck as I push the muscle forward towards the next milestone.
Equal parts embarassing and hot. I went to sit in one of my grandmother’s wooden rocking chairs and my ass and thighs. I had to squeeze myself in.